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I HEARD THESE WORDS

I prayed and prayed that he could stay
He was too young to pass away
I asked the Lord to spare my son
His work on earth was not yet done
I need him here to feel complete
It's not enough to know we'll meet

Jesus came and said to me,
"I know my plan is hard to see
Your son was sick and failing, friend
He had some things I could not mend
I took his hand and led him here
It was his time, he had no fear
His work WAS done, he did it fast
It's up to you to make it last
He watches you, he's by your side
He's wiped the tears that you have cried
He gives you strength when you are weak
He gives you hope when days look bleak"

I heard these words ring in my ears
I answer back, I hope He hears,
"These things you say, I don't deny
It's just so hard to not ask 'why'
It's hard for me to understand
It's not at all what I had planned
I wonder, Lord, is he okay
He's on my mind, both night and day
I'm not there to hear his calls
I'm not there to break his falls
I worry, Lord, that he's afraid
Next to him, I always laid
I thought he'd grow and bury me
The way that nature's meant to be
The questions dwell within my mind
The answers, now, are hard to find"

Jesus came and said to me,
"I know my plan is hard to see
Your son is fine, he's in my palm
The life he leads is very calm
He's happy here and healthy, too
There's nothing he can't say or do
You're not apart, how could you be
He's in your heart, just look and see
Have faith in me and trust my ways
I promise you some brighter days
He needs his mom to walk ahead
He'll guide your path, that's what he said"

I heard these words ring in my ears
I answer back, I hope he hears,
"I'm trying, Lord, to walk ahead
It's just so hard when he is dead
I want him here to walk with me
I'm angry, Lord, that it can't be"

- Connell's Mommy